I feel like I found a key struggle: liberation vs expectations.
Many ideas liberate me, like poliamory, atheism, anarchism, nonviolent communication, sexual liberation, discordianism, free software, nonjudgemental environments, E-prime, sillyness, love, pataphysics, dada, constructivism, rolling naked in the mud, fantasy, bdsm exploration, pansexuality, this very idea that i'm trying to describe, crying, laughing, mindfulness, what have you.
Sometimes however they become an end rather than a mean, they give me expectations and judgements, and take some other freedom away.
I feel like I found where to draw a line: it's the point inbetween freeing myself of my limits and making myself some new ones.
It's one of those epiphany moments. Weeeeeee!